I feel blah today. The weather here in HomeCity is ass. It is so cold that I actually had to turn the heat on to be comfortable inside, although its muggy outside. It is also the end of August. I gave myself until the end of August to find a new lab and unless the PI from the lab I blogged about offers me a position (she said she would be making a final decision after the 27th ), I'm SOL. I've looked at a numerous labs, but it is hard to find (1) something that you're interested in (2) with a PI that has good science (3) that at least as a reputation for being reasonable. I've emailed numerous individuals, many of which didn't even bother replying. Initially, I took the lack of response to be a reflection upon my marketability, but now I think not responding with even a "not interested" or a "no space" is a bit rude and a reflection upon them.
What now? I am moving on to plan B, which is to apply for jobs. I am sad. I am trying to focus on the positives of looking for a job: I can think about having another kid, we can afford to renovate the house, I can go buy those cute shoes and designer jeans without feeling guilty. I am trying to be optimistic about approaching this as a new adventure, but I just feel sad and I want to cry because I am closing a chapter on a dream. My BFF has said that I can always go back, but I know I won't. I am sure once I land somewhere, I will get excited about it but for now I have to just get over being sad and do what needs to be done. Relearn how to write a killer cover letter, get my resume checked over to ensure its highlighting my strengths and to let the network of friends and professionals that I have developed relationships with know that I am available. With that I am in the process of applying for one job and have made an appointment with the university's career services for advice on the resume and job marketing.
I am sad.
Gas Company guy called yesterday to say that Field manager has not returned his calls and he's still working on it. Blah!
and we have rats in the attic. blah!
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